| Three Tears Ive Saved For You. |
[09 Nov 2009|02:09pm] |
I'm feeling better already.
I was at work this morning, and the usual distractions gave me time to clear my head.
I'm not worried about not being somewhere where I am distracted, I think I've got a better grip on myself then I had a few hours ago.
If this lasts more than a few days I'm going to see what I can do about getting some help.
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| Dear you |
[08 Nov 2009|08:10pm] |
Far away.
xo
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| Hair Loss |
[08 Nov 2009|11:59am] |
I've been waiting to post about this until I was more confident.
I think I'm ready to come out and state that I'm fairly certain that a supplement I've been taking has helped with my hair loss.
Since surgery I've gotten plenty of protein and taken biotin religiously, but at three months, the hair started falling out, right on schedule. At that time (about a month ago now) I added silica, another supplement that I read about online. I have noticed a definite decrease in the amount of hair I lose when I wash my hair in the shower. The product said it would take a few weeks to show results, and it did, but now I'm seeing a difference. I'm still shedding, make no mistake, but it's less. I wasnt' sure at first if it was just wishful thinking, but I'm pretty confident now that it isn't.
Here is the supplement I'm taking: Silica from Puritan's Pride
It's a natural supplement taken from the horsetail plant.
Now let me give you another caveat...I am taking the HELL out of it. The dosage is three pills a day; I'm taking more like four or five at least. Pretty much whenever I'm eating or drinking something (it's recommended to be taken with food) I take one. The site where I bought it sells it at a discount for more than one bottle. I bought four. I keep a bottle at work so I can pop them there, too. It's not a huge pill, it's fairly easy to take although there is a slight not-so-great flavor, but it's no big deal.
Since so many of us are concerned about hair loss I thought I'd share this. So far it's working pretty well for me. Like I said, I've noticed a difference.
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[08 Nov 2009|12:43pm] |
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Well, four weeks not updating for is a very long time! You'd think I'd been really busy or something. but truth be told, I haven't been. In fact - I rarely ever am!
Wez has moved in and been here about 5 weeks. I finally started my NHS contract! I should get paid on the 23rd November, unfortunately it's only going to be a basic wages as we get paid our enhancements a month behind! Suuuucks. I had to go on an introduction to the NHS course, it was really boring, nearly everyone there were up themselves and half the speakers didn't turn up and we got to leave at 230 and go shopping both days; which is a nice bonus! We got back in Lindas car and as we were about to drive out of the car park she thought she'd ring her husband to let him know she was on the way, only thing is we can't find her phone, i'm ringing and ringing it and i can't find it. So we trace our tracks and run back to the pub and find it still in there in the middle of the floor, we'd been gone from there a good 20 minutes, so pure luck, especially as it's an iphone! Work hasn't been too bad, if you ignore Heather Edwards, the staff nurse from hell, she's an amazing nurse do not get me wrong. However, her attitude stinks. She's rude, makes everyone tread on eggshells and is just horrible to be around. Finally after months and months of her attitude, Lou Holford our ward sister is going to talk to her, we're all really hoping that Heather is going to leave, she has no reason to be so horrid. Her man she is seeing wants her to move in with him in his house in italy, she'd need not work and could rent out her massive house she has in the UK. It's alright for some, eh? I understand things are never that simple, but to have the opportunity alone, it's amazing. Otherwise, work wise, things are going really well it's nice to have guaranteed hours and not have to worry!
Money.. Well Wez got a nightshift job at Anglian Crown, packing job, but good money £8 an hour. Unfortunately he came home in tears the following morning, saying how much he hated it. I was on a 15 hour shift and didn't really have the time to talk to him, so came home to see him at lunch time for an hour; where he completely ignored me. Finally he started texting me at work saying he'd been working with nothing but Lithuanians and that they spent the whole night talking in their own languages, not telling him how to do the job and walking off when he was asking for questions or some help. So in the end me and Mum came to the conclusion that, he shouldn't go back if it makes him that unhappy. He has already got another job working as a learning disability support worker at a local unit. He is just waiting for his Criminal record check, which has now been just over two weeks. So it should only take another two. But he has been let off his rent for a month, to instead; pay by decorating the house. He has so far done the bathroom, kitchen, utility room and the front room. Next he is doing my bedroom! Just freshening the rooms up with creams, and hessian colours. I've been mucking in and helping. But I've also been doing 30 hours extra on top of my 40 hour contract, too pay for wez's bills. I only need another 60 pounds and I have enough. I can't wait for the new year to come, and get my credit cards out of the way and move out :) I'm so fed up of worrying about money! All I can say is I hope that Wez likes his new job when he starts other wise he will have to go back to Kent.
Wez is currently spending two nights at his nans, in kent to pick up £50 from her, and buy the new modern warfare game on monday might night. I don't know why she couldn't have just put the money in his account it'd of been a damn sight easier. But at least I get to have a bit of a break and can come home, re-watch some tudors after i've had a bath, read a bit more David Starkey and then snuggle down and spread out in the whole bed, instead of someone cuddling me in a choke hold like grip whilst I try too sleep! I miss my own spac and being able to watch time team until i fall asleep without people complaining they're bored. I also am fed up of being woken up at 130am by verbal abuse being thrown around on the xbox! Makes me so angry, especially when the reason i have to get up so early, is to pay for someone else's bills - that's a funny way to show gratitude, eh?
I've stopped having me hair extensions in as my hair dresser has just had a 8lb baby boy. So we are giving my hair a break and i've made clip ins with the old hair I took out, I could really do with re-dying it, or maybe even buying a new pack or two of hair, money permitted obviously.
I ought to dash off I have work at 130, and as of yet still need to get my work clothes on, and pop in town to buy nail clippers for Leonidas!
Roll on 9pm so I can snuggle down! :)
♥ ♥ ♥
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| Nothing New For the Adults |
[08 Nov 2009|02:50am] |
fnord
Something used to control, that I am going to teach you to break free of, in order to create purity in your wakings.
fnord is the word "word", where fn Is an upside down double u with a hook.
Catch my drift!
Read your ABCs carefully, read em inside and out, upside down, then SPIT THEM OUT!
LATER GATERS, see ya next Sunday! Unless I get a call.
PEACE13LOVE,
CHANDORJAY
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| OFFICIALLY NOT. OFFICIALLY NAUGHT. TEE HEE. |
[08 Nov 2009|02:09am] |
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"Why share these things if they may not even exist in a hundred years? Because it might just bring us all to life."
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My name is Chand OR Jay.
I tip cognate throwns into the waters of the Danube, by giving them their One true name and then taking it away, in the eternal cycles paving the way to manifest freedom.
You are the poetry of my soul. You are all my bodhi, the Soma and the purification of Self through vigilence, truth, the ability to be tickled, and a keen internal sense of love. Our Kind-laced boots bring water walking to even the thirstiest knave.
As you know IF YOU KNOW, I recently awakened into 88 new worlds, each more splendid than the last in its capacity to be infinitely painted with a chaos pen.
I want you to know, I hear you, all aspects of you, of us, simultaneous in our brilliance!
The day after awakening, lazily projecting my boredom at the television sets, I started a new journey, whose prediction would be difficult to track, as it passed through countless anomalies to give birth and rebirth to its very Self.
But enough with the naked sophistry!
I am going to do what I always have done: Just speak the secrets kept so long by the unlawful. Enjoy this world we have created together, out of nothingness itself.
I watch before my Eyes as the universe itSelf actually becomes our story. I live for the first time, undying IN Time. The only Thing of matter anymore is that there is Love.
And the worlds themselves begin to conform around me to my presence as sentience, and in a sort of unknowing comprehension of what is it we're doing here. Where we're going from here. How we will get there. Word by Word, Piece by Piece, Until We Reach The Light.
As for the Mason Program, it is going to begin breaking down at the seams, a victim of its own inability to properly educate its youth, of which one in a thousand thousand offspring even has the balls to dye their hair red. Come with me before a new Autumn!
Enjoy the show!
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( If you are a powerful person - The following is a story I completely made up. I'm just a kid! )
Peace&Love:
:evoL&ecaeP
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| Better late than never |
[07 Nov 2009|12:41am] |
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40 min past midnight. That still counts as the 6th according to the site.
10111 / 10000 words. 101% done!
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| Pics time |
[06 Nov 2009|12:30pm] |
Time for pictures! Yay, pictures! Although that "before" pic gets more and more horrifying with each pound I lose.
( Pics of me, minus 63 pounds )
Lori
RNY 7/16/2009
341/335/268/150
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| My grandmother and my weight |
[06 Nov 2009|11:55am] |
My grandmother said the nicest thing to me last night on the phone.
First, a bit of history. I have a loving, supportive family that I'm very close to. My grandmother (my mom's mother) has been a big part of my life forever; I grew up no further than a couple of miles from her so my brother and I saw her all the time.
My weight's always been...let's just say, a point of concern for my whole life. I'm sure a lot of you can sing along with this tune. I dreaded the yearly going through of the closet to see what fit and what didn't fit. It was always an exercise in "how fat has Lori gotten now?" My mother had some concerns, there were times when I was ashamed and when I could tell it bothered her, but she wasn't the worst offender by far. My grandmother has always been the one who's made me the most self-conscious about my weight. She often took me clothes shopping (she loves shopping; I of course have always hated it as most kids with weight issues do) and it was always an exercise in torture.
Appearances are important to her. Whenever she talks about anybody, the first thing she mentions is always how cute or thin they are...or aren't. It doesn't help that all my cousins (who are all significantly younger than me) are all thin and gorgeous, boys and girls both. My brother and I are the problem children where weight's concerned (my brother isn't fat, but he's maybe twenty pounds overweight...and he's the sort that will GET fat very easily if he doesn't watch it like a hawk). My parents are both big people, my mother had issues with her weight her whole life. My grandmother's maybe a size 12, but she's 77 years old. She's slender for her build.
I always felt, my whole life, like I was the grandchild she was embarrassed about because I was fat. It didn't matter that I graduated third in my class or was a National Merit Scholar or went to an exclusive private college or got a master's degree in chemistry or published a novel. The first thing was always, how do I look? Am I wearing makeup? Am I wearing something unflattering? Have I gained weight?
I did recently discovered that I may have read this wrong for a long time, and some of this may have been my own insecurity talking, not my grandmother's intentions. My mom stayed with me after surgery, so we talked a lot. She and my grandmother went on a road trip last fall, so THEY talked a lot. One of the things my grandmother said was that she worried that she's put too much pressure on the other grandkids to be...more like me. Apparently all this time she's been hoping and saying that they'd all be smart like me, and accomplished like me, and independent like me, and self-supporting like me. And here I thought the thing she cared about the most was that they not be fat like me.
Anyway, I talk to her on the phone about once a week. This week when I called she said "Oh, Lori, I was just thinking about you earlier." I asked why, and she said "Well...I was just thinking about how proud I am of you. You have so much to give to the world and everyone in your life. I'm so happy you're taking steps to make sure you're around for a long, long time."
Yeah, I got kinda misty. I can't wait for her to see me at Christmas. I'll probably be down at least 80 pounds by then (I'm down 63 as of this morning).
Lori
RNY 7/16/2009
341/335/268/150
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| Today will be the day! |
[06 Nov 2009|09:39am] |
That I get caught up. For sure. :3
Starting point: 6730 / 10000 words. 67% done!
edit #1:
7120 / 10000 words. 71% done!
edit #2:
8086 / 10000 words. 81% done!
That's where I was before I went to bed last night! I have about 45 more min to write until I have to leave to go to my second job where I can no longer get onto gmail. >_> Maybe I'll just...write on paper. Try to organize my thoughts more.
edit #3
8518 / 10000 words. 85% done!
Second job time. I was stalling on writing this past scene so I skipped to the next. More things are afoot! I feel really good about today.
edit #4:
9130 / 10000 words. 91% done!
40 min until midnight. Lets see what I can get done in that time. Can I write 870 words in that time? We'll see.
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| Getting ready for surgery |
[06 Nov 2009|05:06pm] |
Though I have yet to set my date exactly, I am looking at having my lapband put in during late March next year. But my doctor has advised me to start on Optifast, having it replace one or two meals now, and then a month before surgery have it replace all meals.
My younger sister, who lives with me is a month out of having her lapband in, so I have seen first hand what recovery and all is like, and that is something I feel really positive about. But I also saw what a challenge the pre-surgery diet was for her. She really struggled with the Optifast, and she only had to have it for a month.
I'm going to do it, whether I like it or not. But oooh these upcoming months, especially since it is summer here, and the party end of the year, man these three months are going to be hard for me.
Has anyone else had to do this, or did you just do the month before pre surgery thang? Ahaha, I am not looking forward to it, but I am determined!
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[05 Nov 2009|06:23pm] |
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I have decided to leave this community as it is no longer useful to me. Those of you whose progress is of inspiration to me will likely wind up being added to my journal. For the rest of you, I wish you luck on your journeys.
There are many reasons for this decision, the least of which was the reception from my most recent post. I strongly feel that the climate of this community is not geared to those who are facing the long term haul of their journey post WLS. Perhaps someone with more time than I can start one and perhaps I'll join when I have time to read and check in on a regular basis. For now, I realize this is not the place for me.
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| pussy fart. |
[05 Nov 2009|06:19pm] |
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hahaha
I can't wait to move out of this town.
Santa Cruz bound,I'm going to start saving all my change/everything I can.
I hope to move by April or May. Mid summer maybe.
Depends on how I do on saving my skrilla!
<333
I dont mind starting over. Care to join?
xoxo
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| Brought to you by the social engineering lab at The Nth System, .INC |
[05 Nov 2009|05:05pm] |
This is a very special Guy Faux day.
Deep in the atmos of space, deep beyond the farthest stars, a federation mothership (CODE NAMED PARLIAMENT) was infected with a polymorphic virus with the capability of ripping through even the most motley of worldfabrics, and requilting them together into new DEsigns.
Internal timers have been set, and our Ghost in the Database Will perform its scheduled activity right on Time.
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| Hey WLS folks... |
[05 Nov 2009|06:50pm] |
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Anybody have suggestions for LJ communities focused SOLELY on lap-band patients?....TC
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| Getting caught up |
[05 Nov 2009|09:28am] |
My status for today to get caught up with Nanowrimo:
3275 / 8333 words. 39% done!
edit:
4178 / 8333 words. 50% done!
edit #2:
4887 / 8333 words. 59% done!
edit #3:
5379 / 8333 words. 65% done!
Edit #4:
6730 / 8333 words. 81% done!
Close but no cigar. I will try to get completely caught up....tomorrow. :3
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